I'm in Newquay, yay! But yeah, not really a fan of family holidays tbh! It's alright when Aby comes, but we didn't have room this year :( Last year when me and Aby were here, I remember we went in the tent and me and Jared were like sort of getting together, and Jared was at some party and was absolutely mortal, and he kept ringing us because he was out of it! And I hate thinking about it, but he said how he only wanted me, and he'd rather be talking to me than anyone at that party, that was his excuse for staying on the phone. It's times like this when I remember things he said and I realise how much I miss him and I know it's my own fault why we're not together now... I was definitely just too scared to allow anything to happen, and I wish now i'd of just gone with it! Me and Jord wouldn't of fallen out, we're too close for that to happen, and yeah, it might be horrible and awkward at first but after a while it would be fine and perfect, what am I saying?
I really need to get over him, he's happy now, even though she's a slag, he's still happy and i'm happy that he's happy and he is happy so therefore, i'm happy too.
I forget that someone I know may read this, and realise that I still like Jared. I would never tell Aby... or anyone for that matter, I like people to think i've moved on, even if I haven't. Bdjdvificidjwk, please kill me now
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