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Everything is soooo good right now, aw I love it and yeah cutie

Tonight's a sad night, loving lyfe

I know we have no chance anyway but you're a fucking bitch and he can do so much better than you ok, why can't you just not get back together please don't get back together please please please I really need this not to happen, not now, everything could work out if you just fucked off. Ok it probably wouldn't, but, oh shit you're going to get back together, I know it, it's so obvious and I miss him more than you ever would, just please go away your such a slag, and he's not and he's cute and protective and still feels awkward around me which means, well nothing, itu probably means he despises me, but if he didn't feel anything he wouldn't give a shit if I was around him or not. The last thing he said to me (when we fell out, not like at xmas/new year) was 'I really loved you' LOVED LOVED what?! How can you say that and then just fuck off, this makes me sad, everyone has a perfect guy/gal and i'm like YH BEING ALONE IS GR8 and I want to talk to him so badly but i'm too much of a fucking pussy someone please force me to talk to him yh?

Abbie is the best friend ever

Holy fucker, I might as well become a therapist. I'm pretty sure i'm the best friend in the world too.
So, I met Lauren after school and she said her and her boyf aren't too good at the minute. And then she text me like half hour ago saying 'he's about to end it' so I rang her and she was balling her eyes out, it was so bad there was nothing I could do she'd got herself into such a state saying it was all her fault, and I don't think i've ever been such a good friend in my whole life, like to someone except Abs, I was telling her how he's such a dick for treating her like this, she has done NOTHING wrong, and I damn sure made certain she knew that.
After we'd finished talking, I said i'd meet her tomorrow after school, and when I hung up I was like, shit she's gonna do something stupid, and I was like shitting myself like, I know what she would be thinking and I kept ringing her like pick up you twat! And then I was going to sort of tiptoe around it but I couldn't help it, when she picked up the phone I literally shouted at her, IF YOU DO SOMETHING STUPID LAUREN I WILL NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU! And I was so relieved when she laughed and said, I'm feeling shit, yeah, but I won't do anything like that! I know I was probably over thinking it all, but if she did do something and then I had spoken to her literally minutes before I would feel so guilty and omg I can't even think about it, she's such a good friend, even though she sometimes does do things which annoy me, idc, she was upset and I was there for her and I feel like such a good friend

Fu

How is it possible for someone to be mardy all the time?! It's actually got to the point where I can't even be bothered with you anymore.
If you stay like this for much longer you can just fuck off, all you do is talk about yourself and it's boring and you're annoying and yh

Emotional blaaaaaaaah

In the day, I swear I don't feel any type of emotion, and then at night i'm like crazy emotional! Like, I was just really upset because Danni's going uni, and aw i'm just going to miss her so much, like our night chats and beating up liam and getting curries all the time and shopping at christmas and what not.
And now, I really want someone who I can talk to all the time, and cuddle and watch shit movies with and go for walks and stuff.
In the morning when i'm all emotionless again i'll read this and be like hahaha, i'm such a twat. But at the minute, aw I really will miss Danni and I really want a cuddle