Tonight's a sad night, loving lyfe

I know we have no chance anyway but you're a fucking bitch and he can do so much better than you ok, why can't you just not get back together please don't get back together please please please I really need this not to happen, not now, everything could work out if you just fucked off. Ok it probably wouldn't, but, oh shit you're going to get back together, I know it, it's so obvious and I miss him more than you ever would, just please go away your such a slag, and he's not and he's cute and protective and still feels awkward around me which means, well nothing, itu probably means he despises me, but if he didn't feel anything he wouldn't give a shit if I was around him or not. The last thing he said to me (when we fell out, not like at xmas/new year) was 'I really loved you' LOVED LOVED what?! How can you say that and then just fuck off, this makes me sad, everyone has a perfect guy/gal and i'm like YH BEING ALONE IS GR8 and I want to talk to him so badly but i'm too much of a fucking pussy someone please force me to talk to him yh?